cause its not just about ME

its funny how I seem to know many people but i still don't know 'people'.
So well now i should characterized as 'dumb'? or better a fool?

But to me its not just my fault, i identify myself through the people i know, that's the way i am brought up, to me no one is actually a bad person, lol i sound like mother Teresa but seriously i mean things that people do make them bad duh but honestly the first impression of anyone i meet is good to me so no one is bad on the first place then slowly if things seem to be indifferent then i might tend to slightly dislike that person but then i would still think that c'mon he's a human and humans make mistake and he's not all that bad and slowly or rather unconsciously start placing my trust on that particular individual and think that everyone is loyal to me and they care about me and believe in whatever they tell me thinking they can never lie and can never think of harming me in any possible way... hmm doesn't this sound like am the blessed one on this earth with so many people out there for me

But, then, reality check! someone screams from up, hey you need to come out of that fantasy world of yours where apparently everyone is an angel!
open your eyes and see what this world is doing to you, what they are thinking of you and look at the way you are being used, do 'all' the people around you really know the real you? how does your existance matter to all of them, once you are here, other day you are gone, whose gonna have time to think about that? well except for my best friends

Haha sigh! this world is just too selfish, thats the word for them, and u know its funny when such people think that they are humane and caring and blah blah
dude, did you ever take the trouble to even know me? or just judge me by the way i talk to you, hmm and i have to face this reality check really often when i get to know the real people behind that sweet, loving and generous faces

and worst when my this glass of trust is just shattered by someone's lie, okay okay my fault, its been 18 years and its about time that i learn how to live in this oh so fake world

so steps towards becoming a suitable to this world:

1) be selfish, think about yourself before any one else, cause thats what all most of the people do

2)ignore all the good qualities in someone and point out every single fault in that person

3)never be happy for someone in fact be jealous of his success and think about every possible way you can bring him down and ruin his happiness

4)never be happy and satisfied with what you have but always curse your destiny and think that others are happier and they always tend to have more

5)dont think about others' feelings, its all about ME, doesnt matter if anyone gets hurt, as long as i m happy it shouldnt bother me

6)never be sincere or loyal to people you meet, as long as you can play around and get the benefits its worth it!

well there is alot more to it but right now i am not in the mood to mention more but am sure if you follow all these first u ll be able to survive in this fake world
i have yet to start following all that but i just keep procrastinating because of these inner voices in me which keep telling me not now

but has there been any day in your life when that letter "I" didn't come to your mind? if yes, then u can join me cause i like you ;)

We are Just TOO Generous

What can be the most annoying, irritating, disappointing perhaps a really frustrating moment, when you have your hopes all high and suddenly something dashes them like anything and then someone comes and tells you , your mistake why do u have such hopes? don’t u feel like just kicking that person on his face. This would have been the feeling of every Pakistani, regardless of the fact that they had interest in cricket or not, cause at that very last moment even those so called ‘I don’t get cricket, its boring’ people were all glued to their television sets and some unfortunate ones refreshing their web pages continuously at cricinfo, nerves all high, screaming at the loudest when a catch or a run out was missed or when a ball was answered by being hit a four or a six.

Well forgive me for not being able to use those technical terms used in cricket, that’s little my brother’s job!

This was the scenario of my living room last night which rarely had all the family members presence at the same time but yesterday was accommodating all the six members doing just the same one thing (which is unbelievable though!), watching the T20 semi-finals match between Pakistan and Australia.
What a start it was, all fours and sixes and the Akmal brothers with their stupendous performance winning the hearts of almost everyone and we managed to give the aussies a target of 191.

Then we take over ground, aussies on the pitch, and then YAYY a wicket! 1/1, I just couldn’t be much happier than this, I mean not only me ,all the Pakistanis out there, amidst all this politics, terrorism, inflation and how can I forget load-shedding, we had a REASON to be happy and celebrate!
after a fall of a few early wickets came White, who scared us all with his hits contributing a 43 to the aussie score board, but then we were still hopeful with Aamer and Abdur Rehman just taking wickets on time leaving the aussies nail-biting , then came Mike Hussey who is usually known for taking singles , twos and occasionally fours had us praying even harder cause he seemed all calm and unstoppable!

THEN THE LAST OVER, THE LAST OVER!
One
Six
Six
Four
Australia needs one run from two balls
and there goes a Six
Aussie qualifies for the T20 finals

There was an unusual silence in the room, I was almost in tears, how could that happen? we were almost winning, mom comforting my little brothers by telling them all about sportsmen spirit and fighting till the end and then she came to me saying, ‘haarta woh hai jo haar maan le’ (he is defeated who accepts his defeat) , MOM! its not helping now, later
then I see my facebook homepage filled with emotions, some swearing at the aussies, some praising Pakistan, some just too shocked like me with statuses saying nothing more than an OMG! WTF?

Twitter was a little mature though with some tweets worth mentioning like:
Pakistan disappoints, but not disgraced, well done boys
Australia won it rather than Pakistan lost it

Well, it was upsetting but all in all something which rather taught us some real good things:
Pakistan is the most unpredictable team, fighting till the end, not losing hope and haha losing a winning match after all it takes skills in doing that and we are just too generous and are known for our philanthropic works right?